The Thoughts of a Maniac

So, while showing my friend Mel_MD how to post things to her journal, I made the horrible decision of deciding to post something in my own journal.

It is very cold here.

The ice is melting and freezing over once more.

We have no power....at my house....thus I steal other people's abodes.....

Have a nice day!~♥

What are you afraid of?

What am I afraid of?

That all of my loved ones are going to be ripped away from me right in front of my eyes, and I can't, ne, WON'T do anything in the fear of getting hurt myself.

I fear that my selfish nature will shine through, or that people will finally realize that the reason I laugh at odd times isn't just because I'm tired, it's because I hear things that they don't seem to.

I fear that all my nightmares will spring to life and devour me, ripping and shredding my soul and sanity piece by piece until all that's left is a broken shell of flesh.

I'm afraid of what lies in the dark, and I'm afraid of going too far into the light.

I'm afriad of myself.

Umm, okay....so I was back on LJ thinking to myself: "Self, when is the last time you DID ANYTHING!?!?!" and then I received the worst verbal ass-kicking I've ever given/received.

I am very self-abusive....*sweatdrop*

Anyways...umm....nothing new has really happened......I mean, lots of things happened, but I don't even know where I left off!

I'm alone.

Everyone around me is rotting.....or maybe that's just me......yeah, I think it's just me.....

So I'm rotting alone....

And I'm going to be 17 this year.

*sigh* Why don't I feel as old as I am? Why do I still feel like I'm 7 or something??

I don't feel like a teenager at all, beacuse I've always angsted like this.

......nothing's changed....

Your 1920's Name is:

Lovie Rosalee

Okay, all cooled off now. ^^ *giggles* check it, I likes it. Lovie Rosalee.....awww yeah baby, I got a name with Lee in it. ♥

I wish my sister would just tell me what she wants of me!

I wish she'd tell me straight to my face that she hates my friends!

I wish......I wish she'd move away again and never come back......

I wish she'd stop telling me she hates me with those eyes of hers......

I wish.........she'd.....just.......stop.........

She asks me to go to church, I say 'fine, I will.' and I really would have without any dark feelings.

But then I remembered my friend was coming over and I told my friend that maybe she could come over early and wait for me.

My sister gets pissed.

So I suggest my friend stay the night and come to church in the morning.......

My sister gets even more pissed.

I wanna ask her what's wrong, but everytime I do, she either cries or screams at me, and whatever she says is usually 'You don't understand', 'I hate you', 'You're stupid' 'IDIOTIC!' 'FAT!'!

I'm NOT! I get good grades! I weigh only 105-110 lbs at most! Tell me and I'll understand.........

Fine, I'll hate you too, like you've been forcing me to since I was young.....

Okay, this scares me so much right now because until now, I have posted nothing on here and I don't know many people on here.......so be nice....Please? *pleading whimper*

I just typed this story up.....forgive any errors, I beg of you.




                                                                                                               Innocent Until ProvenGuilty


((All characters are not owned by me, but by Masashi Kishimoto-sama and all his genius. Lee is about 18, making Gaara 17, just so you know.))



After he and Lee started going out, Gaara found that his lover had the strangest ways of surprising him.

One day he came home and found Lee innocently licking cookie dough off of the mixing spoon, claiming he was just making cookies for his team mates.

Gaara knew by the way Lee’s tongue traced every single part of that spoon, he was lying.

They didn’t make it to the bedroom and now Lee blushes every time he sees that spoon.


Another time, Gaara had walked in to find Lee sprawled out on the bed, face up, almost naked, his legs sprawled apart way to wide for Gaara to resist.

Lee still swears he was trying to sleep and that everything was too hot to wear.


But now, NOW, Gaara was sure Lee was trying to kill him.

He had on one of Gaara’s shirts; in fact, the one he’d worn to bed last night, and some tiny little shorts.

TINY, tiny shorts.

Gaara thought they should be illegal.

And the boy was doing STRETCHES in them!

Gaara kind of stood there in the doorway to Lee’s house, his eyes widening a little with each twist that brought those shorts a little higher, a little tighter between those smooth, milky thighs he loved so much to bite and nip and make Lee yelp.

He stood there…..until Lee bent over and spread his legs as far as they could go, doing the splits almost while balancing with his hands flat on the surface of his carpet.

He looked between his legs and smiled.

“Hiya Gaara, just stretching a bit since Gai-sensei said I couldn’t train today, loosening the muscles ya know? Wanna join me?” he inquired as if this was the most natural thing in the world. For some reason, his sensei had said Lee needed the break…..something about limping when he walked……

Gaara thought his lover must love getting jumped for all the things he did as he numbly watched the shorts hug Lee’s ass so tightly he could see the boy was wearing no underwear at all.

“Oh yes, Lee, I’ll help you loosen your muscles.” The red head growled predatorily as he advanced.

Lee gulped audibly and his eyes widened.

“Oh no! I can barely walk half the time after you’re through with me!” he yelped, trying to scramble out of the ‘relaxed’ position; but Gaara was upon him and holding him in place, spreading his taller lover’s but cheeks.

“Oh, no, Lee? You shouldn’t tease so much then.” The Suna boy rumbled.

The Leaf nin whimpered as the shorts material rubbed against his opening mercilessly.

“But I was just stretching!!” he whined, making Gaara almost loose it.

“You’re such a cat.” He mumbled, bending over Lee so that their bodies melded together so he could snuffle at the other’s neck.

“If anything you are.” The dark haired boy muttered under his breath, a smile in his voice.

“Do you know how much I LOVE my smell on you?”

“About as much as I do I’m guessing.”

“MINE.”

“Indeed.” Came the amused reply before Gaara swept up his lover and took them into the bed room, animalistic purrs and helpless mewlings starting up almost the second the bed creaked.


The next day, Lee got up and left for training with his team.


“Lee, spill! Why have you been limping this past week?” TenTen asked.

Lee gave her a pitiful look.

“Well, first I was making cookies for you guys……and I was eating the dough off the spoon when my boyfriend walked in and……” he blushed and coughed.

“Needless to say, you didn’t get the cookies.”

Neji cleared his throat as his and TenTen’s cheeks darkened a bit.

“And THEN! Then I was just trying to sleep on that really hot night the other night, and my boyfriend comes in and…..well……I really didn’t get to sleep much.” Lee sighed.

”And then Gai-sensei gave us off yesterday and I was just stretching since he’d told me not to train…..my boyfriend comes in and jumps me! It’s like he’s some sort of sex machine!”

Lee flopped down on the grass before gingerly rubbing his backside and wincing.

“And now everything hurts.” He whined.

“Aww, you poor thing.” TenTen crooned.

At that moment, Gai walked up.

“How was your day off my youthful students?” he boomed cheerily.

Lee got up and limped over to his sensei.

“Next time you give us a day off…….remind me not to get out of bed.” He pleaded.




((So in the end, yes, Lee was innocent of everything…..though wearing Gaara’s shirt when he knew the other was turned on by their mingled scents might not have been wise. Gai and the others knew he had a boyfriend because, what type of guy is Lee to keep a wonderful, loving thing like his relationship a secret when it should bloom in the spring time of their youth? Anyways, review if you wish.)) 


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